Reuniting Uncle Fred with the Ugandan Orphans Choir!

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Thank you for your support!

As you likely know, from September 2009-July 2010, I had the great honor of serving as Uncle Fred to 10 amazing children from the Ssese Islands in Uganda. We spent nearly a full year traveling together around the Western United States, and became very close. Kalimu, Ronald, Edward, Frank, Denis, Brendah, Safinah, Penny, Jackline, and Joan are all permanently and deeply embedded in my heart, and will forever be an integral piece of my story.

Uncle Fred and Choir at LegoLand
Uncle Fred and Choir at LegoLand!

Since they returned home in late July 2010, we have stayed connected by writing letters back and forth to each other, and they even call me on the phone when they have been able to purchase cell phone minutes! Few things in this world have been able to compete with the excessive joy I’m given when I remember our time together, when I receive a new hand-written letter from one of them, or when I hear one of their voices on the other end of my phone.

The oldest of the children who I will forever refer to as “my kids” will soon be leaving their secondary schools, and could venture out to any number of places. They could go to a local trade school, they could move away to a college, or they could seek work wherever it is available. I have promised them since they left the U.S. that I would visit them before the oldest of them graduated, and their reminders of that promise in their letters to me are both heart-warming and heart-wrenching. In order for me to visit them all together in the same location, I believe I need to travel there in 2013.

Disneyland with the Boys!
Disneyland with the Boys!

I have also been sponsoring a young girl in the same school at my kids for 3 years now, and would have the amazing opportunity to meet her if I am able to make this trip. This is an experience that a rare few of child sponsors in this world ever get to come close to, and I am overjoyed for the possibility of meeting young Janet. She is said to be full of life, full of joy, and budding with potential. I can’t wait to meet her.

Nalubega Janet
Nalubega Janet
Janet on her Birthday (2010)
Janet on her Birthday (2010)

I’d like to invite all of you: my family, my friends–all of you folks who care about me–to support me in this journey, and to own a piece of the experience. I am a prideful and stubborn enough person to know that if it were feasible, I would pay my own way completely, and isolate myself in the experience without any engagement with my community. But I also know that the God of all things large and small authors our lives with connection in mind, and I am gladly accepting his challenge to be open, transparent, and faithful in asking my community to share in the process of reuniting me with my kids. So while I am contributing all I can to my “Reunion Fund” (as I’m calling it), I know that I’m going to fall very short on my own.

Hence, this:
I am asking you for your financial support, and there are Kickstarter-style “Reward Levels” for various giving amounts. I hope that if you choose to give, you’ll see the “Reward” as a way for us to connect and give you ownership of a piece of this journey. I want share all the joy of this experience with all of you!

I am also asking you to support me in a way I’m even less comfortable asking for: I hope you’ll encourage me, provide resources for me, and challenge me to follow through. If I hit a discouraging patch of the process, I’m asking you to push me (and fight me, if needed) to keep me moving (literally) toward seeing my kids. Your support in this way will be a huge blessing for me and for the 10 kids I’ll reunite with, and the one I’ll get to meet for the first time.

And if you’re the prayerful type, I’m asking you to support me by praying for thankfulness, joy, and clarity of mind. I’ll need God’s vision to direct my planning and usage of the Reunion Fund, to bring honor to him, to my kids, and to all of you, who are alongside me on this journey.

Please feel free to drop me line if you have any questions about this. Thank you all so much for your friendship, for your love, and for your support!

Click the image below to check out my fundraising site. Thank you so much!

Reunite Uncle Fred with the Choir at GoFundMe

Whitney Houston Tribute

By now, you all must have heard that Whitney Houston died last weekend.

Tonight, I had the great fortune of witnessing what will likely go down in history as the greatest tribute to Whitney Houston ever performed.

Watch, enjoy, and try to hold back your tears, I dare you:

 

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people talk
a little too much
say things
hurtful, disrespectful,
and worst of all
ignorant

oblivious
compounding others' pain
maybe not oblivious
still hurful
just the same

i hate this
many people talk
a little too much
i do this
i'm sure of it

The easy part

Now that I've told you about the hard part, I'll show you about the easy part.

The kids man, the kids.  They make any hard part of this life so worth it.  Every day they inspire me, they make me laugh, and they let me know that they appreciate that I want to be with them.  And watching them perform. . . it's bananas.  You just have to see it for your self.  I'll show you a few photos and you can see why this life is awesome.

This is the easy part:

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< Frank, Myself, & Edward after 2 intense rounds at LaserQuest! >

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< Peninnah, Saffina, & Jackline show me their power! >

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< Performing "Over All The Earth" >

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< Performing "Lunyege Dance" >

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< Still going on "Lunyege" >

I hope you can gather from this tiny sample how much fun we are having.  The choir is extremely well-polished and explode with energy on stage.  I've been watching them perform all month and it hasn't even begun to get old.  They are truly inspiring!

I hope you can all come see us when we are in your area.  Please see our tour dates and follow our blog for updates!  Thanks all for your ongoing support. . . it's much needed and much appreciated!  

My Story of Kanye West’s Steps Toward Irrelevance

Okay, so it didn’t take me so long.

When he dropped "The College Dropout" in 2003, I honestly felt like fresh air was being breathed in to mainstream hip-hop.  Kanye had a great story–underestimated, creative, worked with the God MC Jay-Hovah himself, near-fatal accident, new motivation.  It was all there.  His lyrics were sincere and presented a new honesty to hip-hop’s fanbase that we hadn’t heard as directly before.  Sonically, it blew far and away all the ATL crunk and NYC G-Unit garbage that was jamming the airwaves at the time, so that made for multiple hit singles, huge sales, and a fast-track to stardom.  Even from the beginning of his fame, Kanye recognized his own narcissitic demons and was quick to acknowledge their potential for damage.  He pre-emptively went out of his way to defend himself against any potential claims that he was arrogant, and stated that his confidence was a mere by-product of his passion for making the entire musical world more creative and inspired.  "Dropout" has always been an album I have referenced as doing exactly what I feel to be hip-hop’s best: it makes you want to sing, rap, change the world, love yourself, think freely, and dance wildly all at once.

When Kanye’s stardom began to blow up (pretty much immediately, with the support of Jay-Z and Roc-A-Fela records), you couldn’t get away from the guy.  Everyone wanted to hear the work of this genius that had been thus far hidden–Alicia Keys’ hits were bigger, John Legend got some airplay, even Brandy and Dilated Peoples made it back in to the rotation simply because Kanye West produced their songs.  Even awful songs like "Selfish" by the semi-reunited Slum Village made it big, accompanied by a shameful video that shows them dancing like minstrels in plaid pants and bright sweaters & blazers.  Kanye was the biggest name around.  Of course, everyone wanted a piece of him, while at the same time everyone wanted him to put out another album to follow his classic.  So in 2005, at the height of his fame, he released his first single, "Diamonds from Sierra Leone."  The mainstream media (as Kanye intended) feel deeper in love with him, seeing him as a conscious and philanthropic artist who concerns himself with the welfare of African children (the other biggest faux-trend of the 21st century) over his desire to "shine" like all the other popular rap artists at the time.  He released a subsequent video that featured slightly unsettling (but ultimately gratuitous) images that were intended to mildly convict diamond-shoppers regarding the ethical nature of their purchases (nevermind the ethical nature of worshipping status symbols), but also subtly juxtaposed Kanye himself talking himself up.  The lyrical nature of the song provides neither education about the diamond industry in Sierra Leone, nor does it demand any sense of higher conviction (oddly similar characteristics of the movie "Blood Diamond"…).  Kanye himself tells you: "When I speak about diamonds in the song/I ain’t talkin’ ’bout the ones that be glowin’/I’m talkin’ ’bout Roc-A-Fela, my home".  He throws in things to trick you, like: "Little is known of Sierra Leone/Or how it connects to the diamonds we own….over here it’s a drug trade, we die from drugs/over there, they die from what we buy from drugs" and "I thought my Jesus piece was so harmless/till I saw a picture of a shorty armless."  If he is so conscious and philathropic, why will he in the same song name-drop Yves St. Laurent, Hennessy, and Louis Vuitton?  The questions for Kanye were building for me when "Late Registration" released, and I refused to purchase it.  I even avoided listening to it for months after it came out.  When I finally heard it, I hated it.  "Gold Digger" (which Kanye called "a gimme Grammy") was no better than whatever garbage 50 Cent or Lil Jon was putting out at the time.  On Curtis Mayfield’s behalf, I could have killed Kanye for "Touch the Sky."  Paul Wall on "Drive Slow" was the worst idea Kanye ever had.  It was especially transparent when Kanye started rapping with a drawl to match with Paul Wall’s.  If you have to change your style to match with Paul Wall, you know you are entering seedy territory.  The only redeeming factor to "Late Registration" was Jon Brion, who I feel forced Kanye to relax, enjoy the music, and not drive himself crazy with trying to be perfect.  Brion came in and did with piano loops and muffled snares whan Kanye in a million years never could have done on his own.  Sonically, "Registration" was very interesting.  Not genius, but interesting.  After the first listens, I warmed up to the album, but still found Kanye to be less sincere and much more caught up in his image and marketing schemes (branding himself) than making a positive difference in the hip-hop world.  The shit hit the fan when he posed on the cover of Rolling Stone wearing a crown of thorns with the caption "The Passion of Kanye West." 

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It was over for me then.

So despite all of Kanye’s side projects (decent work with Mos Def, Dave Chappelle, a certain Hurricane Katrina benefit appearance, a brilliant album of Common’s called "Be"), he kept up with his album-every-two-years pace and dropped "Graduation" on us on September 11th.  His lead single "Can’t Tell Me Nothin’" gave me hope for an introspective, genuine album.  He acknowledges his mistakes and letting his demons get the best of him, and how his stubbornness has isolated him.  But then he dropped "Stronger," which, in my opinion, is a total piece of garbage.  Sonically, if it aint broke, don’t fix it.  Daft Punk did it right the first time and there was nothing Kanye could do to improve it.  So he just simplified it and rapped over it.  Boring.  Besides that, his lyrics were so vapid and juvenile that they angered me: "Now we gon’ do everything that Kan’ like/I hear you’ll do anything for a Klondike/Well, I’ll do anything for a blonde dike/and she’ll do anything for the lime light."  Just total crap.  The video was just more blatant self-adoration, and even though I prefer to disregard videos and let the music speak for itself, it fit perfectly.
So I was filled with mixed speculations when the release was coming up, and didn’t know what to expect.  I had high hopes but low expectations.  I got up early, walked down to the music store, and picked it up before work so I could listen to it before my shift.  I was disappointed to see that there were only 13 tracks (about half of "Dropout" and "Registration"), and that his main guests included T-Pain and Lil’ Wayne.  He also had Dwele and Mos Def, but Mos was on a song called "Drunk and Hot Girls," and my hatred for Kanye’s success was seeping back in.
The first tracks, "Good Morning," and "Champion," are smooth and lyrically somewhat clever, but ultimately filled with shallow machismo and narcissicm.  "Stronger" came on and I acknowledged it’s catchiness, but despised it for the same reason.  T-Pain’s song came next, "The Good Life;" which, about 15 seconds in I guessed to be the next single (whaddaya know, when I got home I saw the video playing for it on TV)–it had all the makings: tacky hook sung by no-talent crooner, raps about jewelry, cars, and the illusion of power, and a big name on the label to legitimize it.  It is clown music.
Believe it or not, the album actually went downhill from there.  The song with Lil’ Wayne ("Barry Bonds") is a complete waste of time for both artists and anyone listening.  Mos Def was next, and as my personal favorite MC, I hoped "Drunk and Hot Girls" was going to be satirical or at least ironic in some way–and if it was, I haven’t caught it yet.  Kanye lazily raps the chorus "We go through so much bullshit just to mess with these drunk and hot girls," and Mos only comes in to lackadaisically sing to try to save the record at the end, but alas, it is too little too late.  The song is demeaning, full of bullshit bravado, and a complete waste of time.  From there Kanye (predictably) tries to appear more introspective near the end of his album with "Everything I Am" (which might be the best song on the album….too bad it’s also the shortest and probably easiest to miss), "Flashing Lights" with Timbaland-esque synth backing (just missing the kick drum), "The Glory" (maybe one of the more honest efforts), and "Homecoming."  "Homecoming" features Chris Martin from Coldplay with a piano loop and sung chorus that don’t stand out, and I actually didn’t even know was him until I read the liner notes.  It’s that anti-climactic.  Still, through all these supposedly "introspective" songs, Kanye laments over tarnished reputation more than tarnished world, defends himself against potentially negative speculation rather than defending his community against politics, and far-and-away shows that he is overwhelmingly consumed with who he is perceived to be rather than who he actually is.  It really sounds like he doesn’t know anymore, either.
The album ends with "Big Brother," a tribute to Jay-Z.  This surprised me, because my perception has always been that Jay-Z has distanced himself from Kanye once Kanye blew up.  Jay doesn’t do many public appearances, and since he signed with Def Jam, even with his comeback, he hasn’t shown Kanye much love publicly.  As I recall, Kanye didn’t even produce on "Kingdom Come."  Anyway, Kanye’s song is most likely a follow-up to "Dear Mama," but it isn’t nearly as heartfelt, and didn’t even appear as sincere.  Furthermore, it means little to me, a fan, if an artist writes an entire song to another artist.  People will be caught up in the sentimentality (we always do, don’t we?) for a short while before they realize that ingenuine sentiments are empty.  The song is useless and is a disappointing way to end a disappointing album.

Kanye West is going through what (in our era) Sean Combs, Fred Durst, Marshall Mathers, and Curtis Jackson have gone through.  He has become too popular a brand to withstand scrutiny, and it is driving him to take thoughtless steps away from creativity and toward senselessness.  For Sean Combs, it was changing his public name to P.Diddy.  For Fred Durst, it was being ruthlessly ridiculed by the backlash of former fans realizing that Limp Bizkit was absolute garbage.  For Marshall Mathers it was releasing "Encore," in which you can hear that he had completely given up and was just going to do whatever stupid crap fans would pay him to do, instead of anything creative.  For Curtis Jackson, it was (sadly) only his second album "The Massacre" that was his first step toward irrelevance.  "Graduation" is to Kanye what those examples were to those artists.  The first hearty step toward irrelevance.

Now, to be fair, many artists have their own stories to tell, that end (as of now) with redemption.  Common’s "Electric Circus" was a horribly failed experiment.  Jay-Z’s "Volume 3" was an awful album (still won the Grammy….for the same reason that Denzel Washington won his Oscar for "Training Day"), but he is still the best to ever do it.  Snoop Dogg has put out half a dozen bargain-bin albums and has made his way back.  So not all hope it lost for Kanye.  He threw a temper tantrum for not winning any MTV awards, but I think that is just the start.  He will not receive any awards for "Graduation," and he will endure much criticism both for his work and his personality in the coming year-two years.  Hip-hop will still love him but will demand that he grow up to earn respect back.  Kanye may disappear for a while.  Who knows how long for sure, but what we do know is that unless he returns with music and lyrics that are both inspired & inspiring, he may just continue down that path of irrelevance.

"Graduation" is that first hearty step.  Don’t believe me?  Go hear the album and then let’s argue.
You’ll hear that Kanye West–for the first time, definitively–needs hip-hop so much more than hip-hop needs Kanye West.  And for Kanye, that’s the sad truth.

-HVC

“The Only Burger You Should Eat”

Home_03 As many of you around Bellingham know, we have anxiously been awaiting (for what seems like years now) the opening of Fiamma Burger, sister of La Fiamma Woodfire Pizza, now open on Railroad Street, between the Little Cheerful and Avenue Bread.  With the exalted reputation of the food & atmosphere at La Fiamma, the expectations for the Burger joint have been sky-high.

As I write this, I wish that had taken the time to chat and/or read more at the restaurant about the philosophy & history of the place.  There are postings on the walls as you enter about them both.  I do remember reading a while back about them taking the approach of using fresh (never frozen) ingredients, buying produce locally, and baking fresh on-site.  This excited me very much, considering burgers around town before Fiamma opened were–while delicious–not created with any sort of philosophy aside from making profit, and always leave me feeling like there are little burger gnomes playing rugby in my stomach.  Ol’ Freddy likes his fresh foods.  "The Only Burger You Should Eat" is their slogan, playing off of La Fiamma’s, (you guessed it) "The Only Pizza You Should Eat."

So, how good is the burger?  I think it tastes great.  The meat is lean (not dripping with fatty nastiness), the veggies full of flavor, the "secret sauce" is not overpowering, and heck–I could eat the bun by itself.  Some complain that the burgers are not as big as at Bob’s (can’t avoid the comparison, what, being across the street), and neither are the servings of french fries.  Personally, my appetite is rarely big enough to finish a full "platter of fries with side of hamburger" at Bob’s, so that complaint isn’t relevant to me.  For people just looking to throw back as many calories as possible for as cheap as possible, Fiamma might not be your place.  Let’s just say that, as far as proportions go.  But if you are like me, and your appettite isn’t that of a small rhinoceros, the meal is very satisfying.  The french fries are also good–still french fries, but not greasy, and not over-fried.  I don’t like onion rings, but they also serve those.  Aside from the hamburger, they also offer a Chicken burger and a Veggie burger, both of which I hear great things about.  The Chicken burger will be my next shot there.  Apparenly the chicken breast is marinated in an herb dressing and served with provolone?  Sounds delicious.  I’ve had the regular Fiamma burger (no pickles, of course), and the Bacon burger.  Let me tell you, if you are on the fence about the bacon, Get the Bacon.  It is the Hempler’s thick-cut–the real deal.  Amazing.  Paige got one with me today and about melted out of her seat. 
Of course they have soda on tap there, and they also serve a pretty fair variety of bottled beers and wines at average prices (about $3/beer, $4.50/wine).  If you are really out of control, you can get one of their floats or milkshakes.  I haven’t had any of those yet, but I’m sure I will.

One thing you will probably hear about Fiamma burger is that it is over-priced.  I have responded to that review with the old adage, "It all depends on what you want, and if you’re willing to pay for it."  Sure, I could get Five burgers from Wendy’s for the same as One from Fiamma, but I want fresh ingredients, a clean restaurant, and (pardon me here) solid waste.  None of which I will get from five burgers at Wendy’s.  For $4.75 you get the burger–for 75 cents you can add cheese, and for $1.50 you can add that delicious bacon I was telling you about.  For another $1.95 you can add fries.  So, say you get the bacon burger & fries–that’ll run you about $8.25.  Seem like a lot?  Maybe, with the Bob’s comparison ($8.95 for the platter of fries/bacon cheeseburger), but at Fiamma you aren’t tipping waitresses and running to the bathroom in two hours.  So ultimately you pay about $3-4 less than at Bob’s all things considered, and maybe $2-4 more than at Boomer’s, but you get the best "quality" burger in Bellingham, and like I say, enough food to satisfy the appettite of anyone smaller than a small rhinoceros.

So go!  Try it out!  If you eat it there (which I recommend), watch how fast you get your food.  You’ll be amazed.  Look around at how clean everything is, and how often someone comes out to make sure it is so (constantly).  Sit outside and watch the passers-by drool over your lunch.  If you don’t quite finish, put your leftover food in to the Food Compost bin, right next to Trash & Recycle bins.  As you order & pay, peek inside the big open window in to the kitchen and see how clean and orderly everything is.  It’ll all keep you coming back, I promise.

Jesus Camp Film Review

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Jesus Camp film review.


Photos from the documentary.

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Directors Heidi Ewing and Rachel Grady have struck gold. If you have seen "Boys of Baraka" (another very special documentary), you know that their style is to let the kids and the stories unfold before your eyes without adding narrative. Never before have I seen a documentary so willing to let the subject matter speak for itself, nevermind the fact that the subject matter speaks huge volumes no matter how it is presented. Do yourself a favor and watch "Jesus Camp" immediately.

The film introduces you to Pastor Becky Fischer, an extremely passionate woman who teaches kids both at her home church and at an annual Summer camp in North Dakota. We see her preaching, teaching, and interacting with some of the kids who we eventually follow home and then to the camp itself. The kids tell their stories, explain their faith, and justify their beliefs, while their parents sit down and tell us their philosophies as parents. When we get to camp we see for ourselves what they are teaching their children to believe, to say, and to do. If you haven’t seen the film, reading any further might spoil some parts for you–just a warning.

As I sat down to watch this film, I did my absolute best to practice epoche: the willing suspension of judgment for the sake of learning. But what I saw stirred too much of my soul to keep my convictions at bay. I saw a huge caucas of children being brought up as soldiers–Fischer’s justification is that Muslim children are being raised up as soldiers for Islam all over the world, so Christian children should have that same passion and fire, except in the name of Christ. Need I point out what a narrow and ignorant view of the Muslim world this is? I’ll fight that battle some other time. Anyhow, Fischer’s camp includes programs that lead the children in militaristic chanting, and at one point she leads them in shouting "This means war! This means war! This means war!" A full-fledged pre-pubescent army for Jesus.

Along with their soldier-mentality, the kids have a purely Evangelical Christian education. The parents homeschool their children, explaining that since "God has been removed from public schools," they are in despair. The now infamous Rev. Ted Haggard even remarks that they are evil, because they teach evolutionism, but not creationism. One mother teaches her son that science is purely phony because nobody can truly prove anything. She later tells us that she would never send her kids away for eight hours per day to be told lies when she can keep them at home and teach the truth.

The children themselves are confident, bright, and so good-natured that it is very difficult to look at them with a critical eye. The exception is one young girl named Rachel, who carries so much of that "Christian swagger" that I found myself very angry at her arrogance. She speaks with the same swagger and cocky brashness that she has no doubt heard from her beloved Christian talk radio pastors, megachurch speakers, and President. You want to see them as children: bright eyed, open-minded, naive, no matter how intelligent or confident. Unfortunately they have been so indoctrinated that they have lost much of that innocence that they were blessed with when they were born.

So is this all wrong? The Camp, the homeschooling, the swagger, the soldier-mentality? My heart says no. My heart tells me that God is present in the root foundation of the children and their parents. But my heart also tells me that that the Beliefs that are being taught are wrong. I see Faith and Belief to be quite exclusive, especially in this case. The children are being taught to be soldiers in "taking back" this country and government. They are being oppressed with anti-Evolutionism, anti-abortionism, and bringing prayer in to public schools. At one point a speaker at the camp tells them to pray for "righteous judges" so that government can rule against abortion. As you can guess, the kids shout "Righteous Judges!" repeatedly with great fervor, but with minimal comprehension. The children are being primarily taught exclusively American, hot-button issues that are causes that supposedly support righteousness. They are being taught to pray, read bibles, preach, vote, and spread the word that Evolution is a convoluted lie, Abortion is an abomination, and that government should be a democratic Theocracy (if it can be done). These things are black-and-white issues that one can claim to be one or the other. The kids have chosen the NAE/GOP sides of the issues. Chosen?

I got to the end of the film and felt very sad. I wondered if those children had ever felt truly loved. I wonder if those kids’ parents give them love conditionally–as a duty, or a reward for righteousness. I wonder if those kids know that God will give them grace and mercy whether abortion is outlawed or not. I wonder if, after they leave their homes/churches/camps, and interact with the rest of the world, if they will have the ability to interact with people who did not have the same upbringing they did. I wonder if they will be able to love those people. I wonder if we picked up the kids from Jesus Camp in a 747 and flew them to Darfur and dropped them off, if their passion and fervor would remain unwavering. Faced with situations that are not dominated by contests of partisan American political influence, will their faith stand up? When they hit about 27-28, post-college, a few years out of their parents’ care, will they be able to see the world objectively? Will they be able to love the world as Jesus did? Or will it still be war? I wonder how influential this generation of Evangelical children will be. We have seen how influential their parents have been. I just wonder completely: where is the love? The grace, the mercy? The redemption for all that Christ promises? Do these children really believe that they are the only one’s who will receive it, because of their righteousness? Very sad.

See the film. Watch it objectively (if you can). Let it stir around. Ask God what He thinks, but don’t listen for an answer. You won’t get one.

-HVC